OMG am I a ??

She sounds a lovely person. She's happily married and looks upon you as a confidante and friend which is very nice indeed. If you declare anything of what you are thinking/feeling to her she will back off and it'll be awkward between you and you'll regret it, so I suggest you keep your thoughts/feelings to yourself. You recognise her loveliness. Nothing wrong with that at all. I think you are still confused about your uality. Maybe you are bi. Maybe you are a . Maybe you aren't. Until you mix with the opposite and find out how you feel about them you aren't going to know are you. If you have men friends who you can talk intimately to, then ask one whether he thinks you are the sort of girl men go for. Are you a girl who behaves like one of the boys when she's with men friends as this can put them off? Do you ever get ual feelings towards any men but they just don't get your come-on signals? If that's the case then perhaps you are bi. Carry on experimenting and wait and see. Meanwhile, keep your Guyanan friend platonic because, if you are gay, she's obviously not and you'll be wasting your time and destroying the friendship you already have with her.